As I am sitting here writing this, we have exactly 11 days until our c-section date.
I am so excited to meet them, but I have to be honest I feel sick to my stomach everytime I think about that c-section.
I am so scared. I’ve never had any kind of surgery before, apart from egg collection haha!
I know I will be numb but the recovery is what scares me the most. I am a complete wuss when it comes to pain. And to think I will be in pain and need someone around 24/7 to help with passing me the babies and getting out of bed etc makes me anxious. I like to be able to do everything myself.
What also scares me is having to lie on my back for the c-section. I genuinely cannot breathe when I’m on my back and feel like I will pass out. I don’t know what I will be like having to be completely flat on my back for the procedure! But they do this day in, day out, they know what they’re doing I just need to try and stop my mind from going into overdrive!
I can’t believe how quickly this pregnancy has flown by. I have less than 2 weeks left! But then I suppose if I was going full term, I would have another 5-7 weeks to go!
I don’t know if I’m ready not to be pregnant anymore! I’ve loved being pregnant so much and feeling them move and getting used to having a big belly, its going to feel really strange when they’re not in there anymore. I just know I will miss it so much.
I have another growth scan booked for February 8th, fingers crossed they are continuing to gain some weight!