GENDER REVEAL

At the start of pregnancy I was convinced I was carrying 2 boys. I had multiple dreams of carrying 2 boys and having 2 baby boys, so I was completely convinced.

We always said we don’t mind what we have, as long as they’re both healthy that’s all that matters. We just really wanted to know, I think it’s so hard to prepare for having 2 babies not knowing their genders!

At 16+5 we paid for a private scan, we couldn’t wait until our 20 week scan.
Plus it meant I got to see them again so it was a good excuse to have a scan!

Unfortunately because of coronavirus we weren’t able to have a gender reveal party or anything 😦

As the sonographer was having a look at twin 1, we guessed it straight away.
There was no mistaking that twin 1 is a BOY <3.

When she started scanning twin 2, I felt a bit scared. I just kept thinking ‘I hope this one’s a girl’. I just thought it would be the perfect outcome and that would be IVF over and done with. Because I think if I was to have 2 boys I would always want to try again for a girl, I have always wanted a girl!

And well what do you know?
Twin 2 is a GIRL <3!

The most amazing outcome for us.

Just perfect. Such precious little babies and we feel so blessed to be having one of each!

Pregnancy symptoms during first trimester

I have been so so so lucky so far in this pregnancy in regards to symptoms!
I have read it’s really common to suffer more with morning sickness, fatigue etc in a twin pregnancy more than you would with a singleton.

But I genuinely have had no real sickness what so ever. I haven’t actually threw up once throughout this pregnancy yet, and I will be 14 weeks on Monday!

So lets go from the very start –

4 – 7 weeks
I just felt more sleepy than usual, though nothing dramatic. And the fatigue may have also had something do with being unwell/recovering from ohss so I can’t pin all the tiredness to pregnancy.
I also had A LOT of cramping. Which made me so so nervous, I felt like I was going to bleed at any time and it would all be game over. This was the scariest time and mentally I struggled, I was just so scared and even convinced it would all go wrong. I spent all my time on google reading through forums searching for some reassurance! I had seen failure 3 times previously and now that I was finally really pregnant it felt all that more scary to lose it all. I kept taking pregnancy tests and digitals in an attempt to reassure myself and checking line progression – which sometimes helped til the next day or my next cramp!

At 7 weeks we had our first scan at the IVF clinic, which reassured me so much (though not for long).


7-9 weeks
I felt nauseous quite a lot, but only with foods! I had really strong food aversions and went off anything and everything sweet! Even looking at cake or chocolate made me want to gag!
Also foods tasted different, I usually love broccoli but that made me feel really sick. I was eating cottage pie one night and the taste almost made me sick, which is a meal I would usually love!
I had also been really bloated come the evenings by 8 weeks, I looked pregnant but it definitely wasn’t a baby belly it was just bloating and the amount of food I’d eaten!
The most draining symptom I have had is being starving aaaaall the time, especially whilst being so picky! Like I’m hungry but everything is making me feel sick!

Weeks 9 – 13
All my symptoms settled gradually, even though I didn’t have much in the first place! The only thing that hasn’t really gone away is the bloating and the constant hunger.
The nausea has completely gone away, and although I’m still not all that keen on sweet food it doesn’t make me gag now. I have eaten the odd piece of chocolate/cake but don’t eat it anywhere near as much as I used to, I just don’t fancy it.
The only things that make me gag now are brushing my teeth and horrible smells! Sorry but I can’t even deal with the food waste bin. It’s a no from me.
I still haven’t been sick, but if I was it would be because of these not because I feel sick.

Now
My newest symtpoms have been a craving for sour foods, unripe blackberries are my favourite! Also roast potatoes and graaaaavy!
Also shortness of breath/no energy.
I literally can’t do anything at all without getting out of breath. Just standing up off the sofa makes me out of breath, drying my hair the other day I had to stop and lie on the bed cause I felt so out of breath and energy!

But honestly, other than the lack of energy when I do anything, I feel absolutely fine!
I’ve been having lots of stretching/growing pains this week.
We also got given a doppler by my sister-in-law and we’ve been listening to their heartbeats every night, which is hugely reassuring when I’m worried about the pain I’m having. I also just love to hear them and use it even if I’m not worried!

Also I have actually lost half a stone during the first trimester to my surprise!
Considering I have had no sickness and have been constantly hungry, I have lost weight. Though I read online that apparently in a twin pregnancy you can lose weight in the first trimester because your body is working so hard to grow the babies and their placentas!

Will update again after I have seen the consultant on Monday!

First trimester screening results

I haven’t really been thinking much about this to be honest!

But when the letter came through I felt really nervous! Will rang me whilst I was driving home from work and said I had a letter and do I want him to open it.

I was like nooooooo that’ll be the screening results let me open it, but he wasn’t going to be there when I got home so we bickered about who was going to open it!

So I said he can open it but don’t tell me anything and I’ll read it when I get home, but he read it to me anyway -_-

Luckily, the results were low risk for all the test and both babies!

I wasn’t really expecting anything different, I just didn’t have that feeling something would be wrong. But I still got scared when it came to reading the results!

So relieved all is fine though, next appointment is with the consultant on September 7th. Will update then!

12 WEEK SCAN

My god, we’re finally having our 12 week scan at 12+2 – August 26th.

Our scan was at 08.10am at our local hospital. It was a really long scan too! They had to measure the skin fold at the back of their necks to check the risk of them having downs syndrome. Well the scan picture with the one lying upside down – yeah he/she did not want to sit still at all. Was doing somersaults, curling up in a ball then stretching out, turning his/her back on us! The lady scanning me kept jabbing the scanner into my belly to try to encourage the baby to move but it wasn’t working, then I had to lift my hips and shake from side to side to encourage the baby to move. We got there in the end, the lady scanning me had a lot of patience!

They were both really well and skin folds were measuring normal at 1.7mm.
They say anything at 3mm or over may mean they are at high risk of having downs syndrome.

I then had to have lots of bloods taken to check for the risk of downs syndrome, Edwards syndrome and Patau’s syndrome. Obviously we need to wait about a week for these results! Also bloods for a full blood count, makre sure my iron levels etc are all okay as apparently it’s common to be anaemic when pregnant with twins!

We announce it on social media today too, I would have been happy to wait a bit longer personally, but Will was far too excited and couldn’t wait.
Though we had so many lovely comments and well wishes, I am glad it’s common knowledge now!

I have also FINALLY finished those horrible fragmin injections!
YEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

I absolutely hated them, and they hurt so much!

I have now changed over to aspirin tablets, the consultant said I need to go on these to reduce my risk of dedveloping preeclamspia later in pregnancy, as I am at a higher risk of that due to having twins!

Another private scan…

We had another scan at 10+5 on August 15th for no other reason than I needed reassurance, again!

This time my mum came with me cause Will thought it would be nice for her to see them seeing as she was just as excited as us!

The scan was fine and they were measuring ahead at 11+2, so they had a big growth spurt in 1 week!
I couldn’t believe the change in them in 1 week! You could clearly see the facial features beginning to form, with the shape of their little noses and chins. They were wriggling and kicking away.

It’s hard to believe they’re in my tummy wriggling and kicking around and I can’t feel anything at all (yet).

I just love to see them, I could watch them on a screen all day every day.
My precious little loves.

Not long to go until the 12 week scan!

9 week scan…

Look how big they are at 9+5!!!

I was so relieved, Will was confident everything was fine but I was just scared that they would scan me and find nothing because of my lack of symptoms.

But there they are!
Both growing exactly how they should be with heart rates of 170 and 171!

We could even see them wriggling about, it was so amazing to see!

Fingers crossed things continue to progress like this!

I have my 12 week scan booked for August 26th, I will update then.
Or before if needed…

What happened between 7 and 9 weeks

Well obviously I worried the whole time and had times where I convinced myself the twins weren’t alive anymore.

The 7th week seems to be the only time I really experienced proper ‘pregnancy’ symptoms.

I felt really sick this week, with the urge to throw up, I didn’t, but thought I might a few times! I still have an aversion to sweet food, though it’s really strong now. Just even looking at cake would make me want to gag! This was really reassuring and probably the only week I felt ‘safe’ because of the symptoms I had.

Once I reached 8 weeks my symptoms eased off again to pretty much nothing, I’d read everywhere that twin pregnancies usually cause much more extreme pregnancy symptoms, but I was feeling fine so of course that made me worry again.

And I had to stop the pessaries now, so I was worried that I would come on my period and it would all be over. It all just felt to good to be true that I was still just waiting for something to go wrong. I desperately want to be able to enjoy this pregnancy but I just can’t seem to stop worrying!

I’m a bundle of joy I know!

Sure enough, I didn’t come on my period and finally the scan came around at 9 weeks 5 days.
Read the next post to see how I got on…

7 week scan!

LOOK!!!

I’m officially really pregnant!
I couldn’t believe it was really true, and with not 1 but 2!

We were soooo happy, we could see their little heatbeats, it was such an incredible feeling I can’t even describe it!

Twin B is obviously a little shy but we could still see the heartbeats.

The clinic were happy with everything and we were discharged from their care and passed onto my GP.

I was told to stop the pessaries at 8 weeks and then I would be free from any artificial hormones to help me to support the pregnancy, then it would be all down to me!

I have booked another scan for 9 weeks because I obviously can’t wait until 12 weeks!

Read my next post to see how I coped from now to the 9 week scan!

Leading up to the 7 week scan

God being pregnant is stressful!
Especially an IVF pregnancy! After 3 failures I felt like I was just waiting for something to go wrong all the time!
I took test after test after test because I would convince myself daily that I wasn’t pregnant anymore and the progesterone pessaries was just stopping me from coming on my period.

Sure enough each test was positive, but that would only ease my mind for a few hours! And if I compared the test to older ones and it wasn’t considerably darker I would convince myself it was all going wrong, god I wish I could have just slept right through til the 7 week scan! I was driving everyone around me crazy, let alone myself!

In regards to symptoms, I didn’t really have many.
Which was also making me panic, obviously!
I felt a little more tired than usual, and had gone off sweet food, but other than that I felt pretty normal!

Only our family members and closest friends (who knew about IVF) knew that I was pregnant, and of course my work!

Anyway, about a decade later scan day came…
Read my next post to see what happened!

Coming home from hospital

Oh I was so glad to be going home!
Mostly because I really needed to catch up on sleep, hospitals are very noisy places!
But also because I wanted to see a familiar face! I wasn’t allowed any visitors in hospital due to the pandemic so it was very lonely!

My mum picked me up and took me back with her and Will picked me up when he finished work and we went home.

It was good to be home!

I got straight into bed, propped myself right up with lots of pillows, put netflix on and fell straight to sleep.

That is until about 11pm when I woke up and had stomach cramps that were absolute agony at the top of my stomach!

I called my mum for help because she always knows what I should do, I’d already had gaviscon which wasn’t working. She told me to get on all fours on the floor and fully relax my stomach and see if that helps to ease it.

I got on the floor and was crying in agony, Will was telling me he’s taking me back to hospital and I was like WAIT JUST WAIT, I did not want to go back there unless I really had to.

After around 10 minutes of being on the floor in all sorts of strange postitions the cramps did subside and oh my god I was so relieved for it to have gone away.

No lie that was probably one of the most painful experiences I’ve ever had!

I continued to have cramps until my stomach went down a lot, but that night was by far the worst!

I spent every day at my mums and dads house whilst Will worked so I didn’t have to be on my own, just taking a few steps was such an effort. I was still struggling to stand up straight because of the pain and wasn’t eating very much, but I did start to slowly improve and by the week after I was able to walk standing upright and was eating much better.

Though only recently have I been able to lie down and sleep on my side without any pain. It took a really long time for things to settle, but Dr’s said they would!

All I hope is that it will all be worth it!